Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Teeter Totter



So it seems like we are now mastering all the emotions of dealing with the ups and downs of our pregnancy. After last weeks positive ultra sound we had 2 that weren’t so good. Last Thursday the fluids were even lower than before, but luckily they spared me the bed pan. B2 continued to do well through the lack of fluid, so well in fact that they decided to perform another ultra sound on Saturday to see if we could take our sweet boy off the continuous monitoring. There is nothing painful about the continuous monitoring, it is more the stress of hearing babies heart beat 24 hours a day…every time it speeds up , slows down or just disappears you get a bit frantic. But the ultra sound didn’t show us an increase in fluid. The ultra sound also left me with me even more uneasiness, they saw some fluid around B2’s heart, they of course told me not to worry. My Doctor really is an amazing man, he has a way of calming and reassuring me but still keeping us informed. He told me not worry that they would take a closer look on Monday on the larger ultra sound machine. Although this helped me get some sleep, I was still worried and started my new worst habit “internet research”. Like my sister in law said, someone needs to take my computer away and block those sites out. They all tend to send you into somewhat of a panic. But like with all the ups and downs I tried to just look ahead and get us to the next day. Monday finally came and I was able to see our sweet boy, I swear he looks like his sister. Same nose, same big eyes…but every time I show the photos of him to anyone they wonder how I can even tell LOL but I get to see it much larger than the little pic. Not only did I see his beautiful little face but also the fluid was up, WAHOOOO and he was active as always. They also did lots of looking at his heart and weren’t too concerned; they said they would just keep an eye on it. After Mondays great day, Tuesday was good our monitoring was scaled back to just 3 or so hours a day. I had the most wonderful nurse who took the time to explain the monitoring strip to me better. The doctors and nurses kept telling me how wonderful B2 looked on the strip, but what does that mean??? So I guess during the monitoring they not only tracking the heart rate but also the variability of the rate, does it go up and down? Can baby control his heart rate if it goes up or down? Also can he keep it fairly steady? Penny (my nurse) told me that they have been getting reads off B2 that were better than most 28+ weeks olds that he was very strong for his gestational age. Happy Mommy & Daddy! But last night my excitement was once again put on the back burner. During the monitoring babies heart rate dropped a few times and didn’t recover as quickly as they like, which considering how he had been going along that was very unusual. They decided to re-hook me up to everything, so late last night my IV was put back in, but for me it was even scarier because they wanted me on oxygen too, I am not sure why that is worse than the IV fluid but it just was. They also continued to monitor the B2 for a few more hours. During the next few hours of monitoring he was fine, just as strong as always so they took me off everything and I was finally able to get some sleep. So far all the monitoring today has been good; I am currently listening to B2 but am of course obsessed at what I am hearing with the fear that something won’t sound right. Today has also brought some other worries but without getting too overly personal (please feel free to ask, just don’t want to totally freak/gross anyone out) that of course led me to the “internet research” , which once again scares me but I am now on the follow the doctors lead before overly panicking and they aren’t overly concerned so until they are I am trying my best to not be either.

Other then the somewhat emotional week, I have been able to see my sweet girl lots this week. She is staying with my parents; they had already planned to have her this week for some Holiday fun before I was in the hospital so she is still doing just that. She has gone to visit Santa and has been helping my mom with some holiday cheer, she also took a GiGi and Pops break today and spent the day with her Gramps. She melted his heart when she came out of his closet with his Homer Simpson slippers on and then she realized they were the same as the ornament, yes a Homer Simpson ornament that makes some sort of noise, grunt maybe, that Saige now imitates. He was very proud, but my mother in law not exactly enthused by the love of her “favorite” ornaments. Saige also got to go to her cousins’ school to pick them up; I bet she loved it as much as they did. My sister in law said it was all they could talk about was that Saige was coming to their School, too sweet! Tomorrow Saige has a play date, she is playing with one of my closest friends growing ups 2 little ones. I am so excited that she gets to play with them, I bet they are just a nice as there mommy and daddy (sadly I have not seen them in awhile).

Over the last 2 ½ weeks I have had so many visitors, it has really been so nice. I have had the chance to catch up with lots of Andy’s family, he has a large family with many aunts, uncles and cousins so it is hard to get to see everyone more than a few times a year but they have been coming to see me which is just the nicest thing ever, I have REALLY enjoyed it! My sister in law and I have been having coffee dates once a week, which is wonderful to actually get to sit and chat without kiddos running around. I have also had friends and lots of our good family friends (like family), including my sisters in laws and family, from Spokane that I don’t see super often come by and of course my visits from my Sandpoint “family” has been wonderful. It really means a lot that people are taking the time out of their busy lives to come see me, really helps make the time pass. I hope everyone knows how much we really appreciate all the visits and well wishes, knowing so many people are thinking about us and our sweet little boy is really such a blessing.

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